Used book – The Hour I First Believed, Wally Lamb

Thomas self-mutilated. He had never gone this far. This time he amputated his right hand in public. They locked him in a high-security hospital. A prison, in fact. A dying place. Paranoid schizophrenia, the doctors said. Dominick, distraught, witnessed the decay of this dark part of himself. He tried everything to save his brother, his twin. He gave him his life and it wasn't enough. Today, psychiatrists are asking him to re-open unspeakable wounds. The first signs of the illness, his mother's silence, and the violence of Ray, their stepfather. And then there was his father, forever unknown, from elsewhere, whom no one ever wanted to talk to him about. And this obsessive question that haunts his life: why Thomas and not him?